June 2013
2 posts
so apparently I’ve managed to get the same throat-ear-nose-whatever infection as some months ago so I’m currently curled up in bed wearing a scarf and cap, at moments pretty stupid with fever and reading 007/Silva fanfictions.
May 2013
4 posts
having to translate words from english because you forgot them in your own native language
watching World’s Worst Place to be Gay makes me want to burn down the world. turn it into ashes, then rebuild it.
April 2013
3 posts
I just spent an hour writing about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (or “Zwangsstörung” or “Zwangsneurose” or “Zwangsgedanke” or what-do-I-even-know in German, and jesus christ, just give it ONE name, will you?) while listening to/watching a documentary about the first years of WWII. I guess, a little bit of motivation has returned after all…
so, I want to get my hair cut. reeaaaally short. but I’d look stupid, so I probably won’t do it. but we’ll see.
watching X-Men: First Class and currently dying. most of the German dialogue sounds hilariously horrible xD erik and the one guy in argentina are the only ones I can properly understand without subtitles… (despite being from Austria..)
March 2013
2 posts
for some reason it just had to start snowing again as soon as Easter break started…
on bright side though: my brother is handing over all of his Gamestar magazines so I’ll spend most of the break reading them x3
also: should I start Mass Effect as Renegade!Shepard? maybe even a fem!shep this time?
February 2013
11 posts
consulting-corellian-time-lord:
yes! it’s only for a couple of lines but it’s still the only time during all 3 games, I think. lots of feels there…remember Kaidan’s “Don’t do that again.” in the Leviathan DLC? (when romanced)
in the German version of the game, this moment is so fucking special. it’s the first time EVER that he drops the whole goddamn polite shit. before this very moment (and most of the time afterwards too) he always uses “Sie”, as in polite “you”, when speaking to Shepard.
during Leviathan they really seem to be friends or more.
oh my god seriously? He changes to “du?”
*is suddenly attacked viciously by feels and collapse to the floor sobbing*
just finished watching Alien.
yea, lights are gonna stay on tonight… *keeps flinching at every noise*
remember Kaidan’s “Don’t do that again.” in the Leviathan DLC? (when romanced)
in the German version of the game, this moment is so fucking special. it’s the first time EVER that he drops the whole goddamn polite shit. before this very moment (and most of the time afterwards too) he always uses “Sie”, as in polite “you”, when speaking to Shepard.
during Leviathan they really seem to be friends or more.
anyone watched the Smurfs as a kid? I found 7 VHS tapes yesterday xD I kinda miss the cartoons that taught some things. oh, and Dino Babies. “the tallest one isn’t always the best leader” xP
I’m really not ready to give the tapes away ^^°
wait, did they actually use the ‘Saren’-track from ME1 (or at least the beginning) for the ‘game over’ screen in ME3? it sounds really familiar…
so I might need to translate about 7 pages of Italian into German until next Monday… shit.
can’t even listen to the Extended Cut soundtrack without having tears in my eyes .___.
finished Mass Effect
there are moments when in the middle of doing something my hands just seem to stop working.
when I’m saying something and everything gets so mixed up and I can’t sort through the chaos.
when I seem to completely space out but in truth I can’t find anything to focus on and I almost panic.
I laugh about it but it’s killing me because something could be wrong with me but I know I’m so fucked up already. I don’t want my mum to worry even more.
and it’s enough that I wish she had aborted when pregnant with me - she doesn’t have to start thinking this way too.
awesome moments when playing Borderlands with a friend
- getting a Puma and spending ten minutes arguing over who is allowed to drive
— meanwhile getting shot by a psycho when nobody is looking at the TV
— afterwards realizing that the driver doesn’t matter because neither of you can drive in a straight line without crashing into rocks
- finding a huge crate with stuff and being so goddamn greedy that you take everything you can get
— noticing afterwards that you took the stuff your bddy wanted and vice versa
—- finally deciding ‘we’ll throw down the stuff at the count of three’ because you don’t quite trust each other…
- swearing in every language you are studying in school
— ending up laughing so hard that you get killed again
- walking into an area with enemies 5lvls higher than both of you
— feeling freaking awesome after beating one of them
— freaking out when realizing ‘there’s five more of them! run!!!’
- telling your parents after four hours of gaming ‘no mum, Borderlands isn’t rated mature, he’s allowed to play it, it’s not violent or bloody…’
— holding back laughter
— knowing that yeah, you kinda suck as a role model
—- not giving a damn xP
January 2013
8 posts
about 15 minutes to go and, well…
I kinda like elementary!Holmes as a character, but not as a Sherlock Holmes, if that makes any sense.
he’s fine and at least a little interesting, but he’s not Holmes and his story isn’t a Sherlock Holmes story but more Criminal Minds or whatever.
still, I might continue watching the series if I manage to not think of it as a Sherlock Holmes adaption.
watching the first episode of elementary even though I should either go to sleep or study some more Italian and reread parts of faust…
elementary is at least (slightly) more interesting though.
Mass Effect
this game is going to ruin me no, the entire series is.
it took me 35 hours to finish the first game. the longest time I’ve spent on a single playthrough of any game was 50 hours (Kingdom Hearts, with about 30 hours of grinding, I guess). it’s been months since I’ve last beaten a game. and I still want to replay it at some point, that’s for sure.
ME2 was more than 40 hours of SAVED gameplay. but then there was the hour I spent on Samara’s loyalty and the four tries it took me to finish The Arrival (goddamn bugs) and the three times I played the last part of the suicide mission until I finally managed to keep all of my crew alive.
and now there’s ME3 and I’m so freaking scared of the ending (is it really that bad? will it ruin everything? who wil survive the reapers?) that I wouldn’t even play it if… well, there are so many reasons I want to play more.
the characters, with their emotions, their bonds, the amazing dialogues and the fact that I love just about every single one of them. I cried when Mordin didn’t survive my first go at the suicide mission, and I hated that little fucker for quite a while. I was sorry about Virmire and Ashley. I want Kaidan to trust Shepard again.
the story, with its high and low points, its mindfucks and its betrayals. I can’t remember having ever been this invested in any game. I want to save everyone in the game that I can and I still feel bad for everybody that I couldn’t save. I felt proud about sparing the rachni, helping the colonies.
and I really need to stop this wall of text now. gonna play ME3.
December 2012
6 posts
gift wrapping time :D
christmas holidays this year are a totally facebook-free zone.
November 2012
3 posts
currently hating my life. a lot.
so, I talk to my school’s doctor quite a lot, when I can’t stand sitting in class any longer. She knows very well that I identify as a guy.
She wants me to go to a self-help group for girls and women. She seriously wants me to sit among depressed women just so I can tell them that I feel like a complete jerk sitting there because I AM NOT LIKE THEM. I am not only depressed because school and classmates are getting worse. I am depressed because I can’t stand being called a girl, because I am no girl.
I don’t feel like hanging out with girls and listen to their talks about make-up. I don’t care about girly sports that my sports teacher deems ‘fun’. I hate it when my mum wants me to learn how to cook and clean and wash just because ‘one day you will have to care for a husband’.
I want to start boxing or play maybe rugby or something. I’d join the army, if I was even remotely healthy enough. I want to have someone to talk to about comics and action movies and horror stories and video games. I want to learn how to repair faulty electronics.
I don’t want people to see me as a cute and pretty girl for the rest of my life.
Why can’t anyone understand?
October 2012
6 posts
so, apparently i’ve got a thing for women fighting. natasha in iron man 2? amazingly hot…
A few words concerning the insane Austrian Felix Baumgärtner. Because I can’t see how some people don’t care about him and what he did and I felt the urge to say why I care so much about what he did.
To me, this whole thing is not about the fact that he jumped for science or Red Bull or whatever. To me, it’s about him and his decision “Yup, I’m going to jump from the edge of the universe!” and going through with it. He did it for nobody but himself - and succeeded. And he didn’t care about anything but his decision “I want to do this!”. He didn’t give up when everybody told him “You’re insane. That’s impossible”. He kept on dreaming and it worked. And to him, dying was no option and that’s why he survived.
And I respect and admire him because it’s kind of a big deal to me. He’s a hero and a symbol, simply because he said “I’m going to do that. Because I want to and because I can. And I will not die. Period.” and it worked.
“Es ist nicht Serotonin und der ganze pseudopsychologische Mist, warum ich das mache. Es ist immer eine Idee, die mich nicht loslässt. Ein Ziel und der Weg dorthin.”
“Ich wollte schon immer an der Spitze stehen. Mein ganzes Leben ist darauf ausgerichtet, dort hinzukommen. Aber je höher du kommst, desto tiefer fällst du. Davor fürchten sich die meisten Leute. Ich nicht.”
“The whole world is watching now. I’m going home now.”
I admire him so much. I’m so glad he made it. He’s amazing. He became a hero by “coming home”.
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I am a sobbing mess right now.
Remember when Pokemon Black & White came out last year? I had sworn to myself that White would be my last main Pokemon-game in a while… that no, I wouldn’t get Pokemon Grey (because, let’s face it, that had been the game we had thought would come out next, after Yellow, Crystal, Emerald and Platin) or the inevitable 6th generation editions… Because I can’t even remember how many Pokemon there are right now and I lost track of the names somewhere in the middle of generation 3, to be honest.
But of course I should have known that, nope, I wouldn’t be able to resist the temptation to buy the new editions. Probably on the day they came out. Which is on Friday (in Austria) - hopefully. One can never be too sure around here. I might even have to wait for one more week.
I will get it. The day I see it, I will get White 2. Why? Because despite headaches and depression and whatever has been irking me this weekend - I played more than 20 hours of Pokemon White. I hadn’t played 2 minutes since April. And right now I love this game so much that I really want to play White 2. Because the old Pokemon apparently come back to appear even in the main storyline, the old characters are back and I haven’t seen this since SoulSilver. Oh, and they finally seem to have realized what they can do with the DS-graphics…
Pokemon-related rant over now.
September 2012
9 posts
Listen
This was recorded by the Portsmouth Sinfonia in an experiment where all the members of the orchestra would swap instruments with each other and attempt to play them to the best of their ability.
This is the result. And it makes me laugh every single time.
most people I know were into comics when they were around 8 to 10 years old…
I only really got into comics (Iron Man, Avengers and a bit of Batman) now at 18.
good thing too, because it’s impossible to get any Marvel comics around here…
our new teacher actually used Harry Potter as an example to teach us physics today. the guy is absolutely hilarious.
